Where The Popsicles Are-138

A purse full of memories.

I ran across your purse today, while rummaging through some old boxes.

It was heavy. Still filled with the touchstones that fill our lives.

I touched the warm leather of the bag and the years since you’ve been gone seemed to melt away.

I gave you the dark brown, leather Coach bag the one with the flap over the opening, at one Christmas past, not because it was expensive, but because it fit you. Elegant, understated, classic.

You wore it well from your shoulder, even when you crammed more into it than it was really built for, but it still looked good.

I opened it, and there were your glasses, your overstuffed check book, notes scribbled on scraps of paper containing names and numbers of people who once mattered to you enough to scribble their names and numbers on scraps of paper. For what reason, I do not know.

I found the talismans, the crystal, the cross, the worry stone, you carried with you during the darkest times of your life, all that represented the hope you carried with you in that dark brown, leather Coach bag. There was also a card that went with one such talisman called, “The Cross in My Pocket.” I never knew if you read it, but I knew you believed it.

There was a note handwritten on a small legal tablet, piece of paper, that was a thank you note you were composing to someone who was very close to you and who had been generous and supportive during those dark times. I don’t know who you were sending it to, but it could have been any number of people. The words were yours, and they came to life off the page.

There was a tin of mints from someone’s wedding in 2007, a wedding you were not able to attend. The decal on the cover read “Jim and Kirsten, April 21, 2007.”

There was a pocket pack of Kleenex, like the ones you used to shred when the going was tough.

When I think of that purse, I think of that snowy day in Minneapolis. We were down there in early December for an appointment of some kind, and we had an extra day all to ourselves.

You wanted to go down Nicollet mall so you could stop at Dayton’s, or Macy’s whatever it was called then, and go to Crate and Barrel for some Christmas stuff. Then we walked over to Hennepin Avenue, and found a restaurant we hadn’t been to before. The early rush was gone, and we were pretty much alone there. We stayed there as long as we wanted, drank some wine, and had some flatbread with Asiago cheese. When we began to see the place begin to fill up, we knew we had been there long enough. We left and started to walk back up Hennepin to find our way to the car which was parked across from The Loon Cafe.

It began to snow lightly, it wasn’t that cold, but the snow came down as if we were part of some giant, ethereal snow globe. You were wearing that black wool coat with your red scarf, and that dark brown, leather Coach bag hung loosely from your shoulder, looking every bit the city girl that day, out with her friend. I carried the bags from Dayton’s or Macy’s or whatever it was called, and the bag from Crate and Barrel, in one hand, the other held yours.

The snow continued to fall, but we didn’t hurry. We weren’t cold at all. I think we were both entranced by the scene that winter day in the city, as if we were playing the parts in some kind of movie, of two carefree lovers walking on a snowy afternoon during the holidays who were in love, and didn’t care who knew it. It was one of those magical times.

I don’t know if you ever thought of that day the same way I did, nor do I know if you thought of that dark brown, leather Coach bag the same way I did, but I like to think you did.

Both of them looked good on you.


About Bob Kallberg

Retired reporter. Concentrating now on recounting Joanie's 12 year battle with cancer, a battle she waged with extreme courage, determination and an indomitable spirit, that, for me, serves as an example.
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